I'm gonna scold myself a little...
Getting out of the corporate rat race gave you the freedom to do what's in your heart. Stop wasting your time, girl! If you want to be the best worship leader there is, why on earth are you not attending practices? If you want to be the best wife for Butch, Why aren't you swallowing your pride and just be an awesome home maker for him? If you want to stay fit and healthy then why are you drinking too much Coke and eating junk?
Sometimes I want to drink lots of coffee just to perk me up. I feel like there's a lot of work to be done in order to see my dreams realized. I find it exhausting-really. Time is just slipping away and I am not getting any younger. Where is Nigel? (my future son. yes, an angel of the Lord appeared to me and said i will have a son and I shall call him Nigel... hahaha of course I am kidding. I just like the name Nigel and I really think my first baby will be a boy... but I'm still not pregnant) Will I ever find myself strolling in the moores like Emily? will I ever see God's glory shining in another person's face? Will I ever write love songs for Him?
Then I see Brooke Fraser. She doesn't consider her songs as "gospel". She just writes songs. Period. But she's become an inspiration to Christians and non-Christians alike because her songs are relatable and uplifting. Its so natural for her. She is who she is- a lover of God and it will naturally and effortlessly come out of her work. Perhaps she doesn't even call what she does "ministry" she's just simply being herself loving her Saviour, using her talents and having fun in the process. I also saw how she's involved with World Vision and I see that none of it is forced she does everything from the outflow of her heart. I WANNA BE LIKE THAT.
I saw 10,000 B.C. recently. The main character in the story was prophesied to be a "hero" destined to save his people. He was reluctant to be the leader throughout the movie. He didn't think he was worthy or equipped. But at the end he accomplished it anyway. His motivation wasn't finding glory or achievement. I think more than anything he was fueled by LOVE. He fell in love with this blue eyed chick who was captured by their tribe's enemies. He wanted so much to be with that girl. So he did everything to save her and while doing it, he organized the biggest pre-historic army, defeated the most powerful king that time and saved his people! I don't think this movie is based on a true story but I am grateful for the insights I got from it.
I am gonna make love my only motivation in what I want to accomplish. Jesus' motivation in saving me wasn't because he wanted to be hailed and worshipped as King of kings and Lord of lords, he just wanted to spend eternity with all of us. I'll let love fuel me then. And what a beautiful, fulfilling and enjoyable life will it be if we all let love fuel everything we do.
Reminder to self: Just LOVE and everything will fall in its place.
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AMEN! kapatid. God bless you. He will honour that desire of yours - to make love your only motivation.
By the way, I am HotMomma, but I signed in here as Pinoy Around the World - my other blog. Just for you to make the connection he he he!
by the way, thanks for visiting HotMomma as well.
hi po hotmomma =) add ko po sa link list ko yang pinoy around the world! God bless din po!
Yep, Love is the reason why our King died. :D
God bless. Just droppin by.
Thanks for stopping by with the advice for Entrecard! :)
Hi From The Eyes of the Heart,
You are just spiritually burned out because you put too much pressure on yourself. Know how to relax and find God's rhythm in your life. Let everything flow and let your motivation be "to live in order please God" (that's love isn't it?)(1Thes. 4:1) and "do all things for His glory alone" (1Cor.10:31). Sometimes, we are just too pressured by our ministry and the pressure of our church work that we find ourselves frequently living in a pressure cooker. God wants us to enjoy our work for Him because we love Him and not because of any obligation. Thanks for the post. God bless you, your family (I'll pray that God bless you with a child soon) and your ministry always.
hi mel =)
yeah, I know it was pressure but I am grateful that the Lord reminded me of these things like what you said do everything for His glory out of my love for Him. Its so cool He used a movie pa, 10,000 B.C. to remind me. I feel so much better and relaxed now =) thanks also for helping me pray for a baby. i appreciate it. Happy Worship Sunday!
hi Wendy! I would like to agree that make Love your core in your life, love will not fail you ... don't scold yourself too much gurl mwah! happy weekend!
You inspire me..
Hola! Thanks for stopping by my site and for ur lovely comment, have a great day! :)
Hi Wendy,
Take it easy girl,don't stress to much. I know how it is, I feel the same way too. I feel like I have so much to do. I want to have a kid too but I also want to explore the world. Sometimes I am confused of what I really want. But lets breathe and relax all would come into place in it's right time.
Have a great week ahead.
So true =) Sometimes I find myself lost too....struggling through life with my own strength. But its so much easier when we do things with love or even let God take control =)
Relax my friend :) God Bless !
That's true Wendy, Everything we do is useless without LOVE. =)
have you heard the song by Ginny Owen's "I Am Nothing"?
hello moja =)
"Everything we do is useless without LOVE. =)"
such a basic truth that is easily forgotten!
ginny owens? i've heard of the artist. cge nga, i'll try to limewire it. thanks moja!
I like this post. Very introspective and meaningful. <3 I wish many more people would take time to reflect on the things they perceive. That's one way of becoming a better person each day that passes by.
it happened to me 2yrs ago,after coming back from Oz with my kids. I just felt so burnt out.
I knew i need to slow down,the everyday commute to-from Makati-Bulacan is so stressful and time consuming, di ko na kinaya.and kawawa kids if wala din ako sa haus coz their dad is abroad already.
It's a hard decision to leave the job i had since graduating from college. But i just asked everything from God, asked him for signs, coz i know in my heart, even if everyone seems against my resignation, that's the right thing to do! And now, 2 years later, despite all the problems and adjustments I encountered from a corporate junkie to a stay-at-home mommy, i am happier, more fulfilled and more than ever, renewed my faith in Him!
Ei, thanks for adding me to your blogroll! I just added u up! God bless, and continue the great posts! :D
nice thoughts... it reminded me of an old preaching
hello maline =)
you made the right decision. when your kids grow up naman, you would have the time to pursue what you want e. Dba your teaching right now? I wanna do so many things but I have to set them aside because Butch and I want a baby. I know everything I want to happen will take place in the Lord's timing meanwhile I have to slow down to make a family =)
thanks din for the add God bless =)
I totally agree with you wendy! and i pray too that "nigel" will come soon. i have a nephew named nigel :)
take care :)
Love is the greatest of all emotions!
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