I went back to the Worship Team

Do I know this song? Are you friggin’ kidding me! This was my favorite when I was pregnant! Apol, the coordinator/ worship leader showed me the lyrics of Desert Song (Hillsong, the one by Brooke Fraser). She wanted us to learn it.

I attended worship team practice again last Thursday. Yup, I’ve gone back to the worship team after more than a year of absence. I was pretty sure I’ve lost my voice. As they say, when you do not use a gift, it tends to bail out on you. But I wasn’t there to sing. I was there to give Glory to my God the way I know how. It just happens to involve using the vocal chords. But that night I was pretty nervous. I looked to my left and saw George and no one else. The two of us were the only back-up singers. It was clear we had to work harder. But as I stood there holding the microphone embarrassed by my rusty vocals, constantly worrying about my 7 month old baby, sweaty and uncomfortable, I began to feel like I fit where I was.

Wrap me in your arms by Michael Gungor was the worship song we practiced.

Take me to that place, Lord
To that secret place where
I can be with You, You can make me like YOU
Wrap me in Your arms, wrap me in your arms…

Singing the chorus over and over again was a plea to my Heavenly Father. I was happy because it was a request He did not hesitate to grant. I remember feeling peaceful, calm and refreshed. Well, normally one would feel these in His presence. But that night, I felt this great sense of FREEDOM. I remember thanking Him for setting me FREE.

Lord, thank you for liberating me from all sorts of crap and lies I used to believe about myself. Now, I am free to love, live and worship you!
I came home thoroughly blessed that night. But I also promised myself that I’d practice the songs on my own at home.

Sunday morning came. I failed to marinade my ears (listening to the song over and over again till you get so sick of the original tune, you’d actually start singing it in second voice. I wanted to get the 2nd voice part of the Desert Song’s bridge) with the line-up of songs because of my busyness in “mommying”. Lo and behold, the entire line-up was changed. This is actually common especially when the worship leader feels led by the Lord to do it. I was particularly pleased with one of the praise songs Apol picked out- I am Free, again by Michael Gungor.

I am free to run
I am free to dance
I am free to live for you
I am free, I am free, I am freeeeeeee!!

I sang my heart out just celebrating, declaring and thanking God for my freedom.